The birthday girl dancing and playing

I wanted to share the video of Nina dancing at her birthday party. As cute as it is, I'm wondering what went on in her little head at that time. You can hear all the little girls playing in the background, while she was in her own little world, tuning out everything around her.
Will I be wondering these kinds of things for the rest of my life? How prominent will the "mysteries" of her past continue to be?
I need to pray for discernment to see what is a personality thing, a "here and now" issue, or a "way back when" issue. Some need to be addressed, some given time, others loved away....
I hope that someday I don't have to question everything I do, or she does, in the light of her adoption. Not that I want the fact of her adoption to be hidden (which I can't for obvious reasons...) or ignored. I KNOW this is part of who Nina is, and I KNOW this will affect her always, but the difference between KNOWING it and LIVING it is sometimes huge. Sometimes really weighing on me. But then I'm reminded that each of my kids has unique needs, that will pose unique struggles down the road - whether it's dealing with a disability, perfectionism, competitiveness, or fear and apprehension (not identifying which one goes with which of my children - if you know them, you'll figure it out :-) ). We will all have to overcome - by HOPE, and LOVE, and FAITH...
Ultimately, parenting is not about fixing things for my children, but equipping them to face their challenges, and learn to draw their strength from the One who knows the number of hairs on their head...
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Here is a "day after" picture of Nina with her new Leapster. She is so hooked!!